Comfort eating

All my life I have been a comfort eater. I struggled a lot through school, especially high school so it isn't a surprise I gained weight. Eating junk food made me happy for a short while then the guilt set it, then I felt worse so then I ate again to make myself feel better. A vicious cycle I couldn't seem to break, the eating just made me gain weight, which lead to more bullying which lead to eating more - I couldn't win.

It calmed down a bit as a grew up and became an adult, but still even at 23 I still turn to food when I get upset, stressed etc. I always wished I was a person who couldn't eat when upset or stressed and ended up actually losing weight.

Recently I have been trying hard to control my emotional eating, I haven't suceeded so far until yesterday. Yesterday I had an upsetting day, being lonely and unemployed really got on top of me and I fancied a chinese (depsite being skint and giving it up for lent!) but I ignored my thoughts, got up, made tea so it was too late to change my mind. I actually enjoyed my tea and didn't regret having it instead of takeaway (I don't think anyone ever regrets eating healthy!). I was so proud I resisted when usually I'd have already been on my phone ordering.

Last night I didn't go to sleep until 4am and woke up at 7:30am so I feel rough, it would be so easy to get a McDonald's break to 'make me feel better' and have a pizza for tea or something tonight. But now I resisted yesterday I feel like I can do it again and agan. We are having a bit of a treat tonight (this was planned way before I felt rubbish). I feel if I can have one treat a week it will keep me going all week and it has helped I have to say.

Tonight we will be having my favourite swedish meatballs (not overly healthy!) but serving with wholewheat pasta, homemade pasta sauce and Weight Watchers garlic bread so a decent meal. Much better than a takeaway or pizza.

I got weighed again today and my weight is decreasing, for some people weighing daily can be a hinderance but for me it keeps me motivated and really helps my journey.

Review : Babz® Fruit Infusing Fusion Water Bottle

I have wanted one of these for a while and couldn't justify the almost £8 they are on Amazon just for a water bottle so when they were on Groupon for £3.98 I was quick to snap one up! I had to have a purple one as it is my favourite colour but they are available in 6 other colours.

I am impressed with the bottle size, it is bigger than I expected and holds a decent amount of fruit and water. It has a nice little handle on the top so easy to carry for exercising/at the gym.

It is simple to remove the fusion part to fill with fruit, it was slightly tricky to fill with water. I filled to most of the way then added the fruit infuser then filled through the drinking holes with extra water until full.

They can be slightly difficult to drink from until you get used to them, the lid comes off and there are a few holes where water comes out. There is no proper drinking hole which can be difficult at first.

It is easy to disassemble to clean properly. 

Overall I am impressed with the item and glad I purchased. It flavoured my water nicely and I think I will use it regularly, it makes a nice change from plain water. I have only tried cucumber water so far but I look forward to trying more flavours.



I rate it 4/5

You can purchase the item for a limited time here http://www.groupon.co.uk/deals/national-deal/gg-groupon-goods-global-gmb-h-859-301/55953426

Fresh Start

I have had a few blogs before but felt a new blog would be a new start for me and I can move on from previous weight loss attempts!

Previous attempts obviously didn't work or I wouldn't be here starting over again, I am grateful those attempts happen though I have learnt so much from trying different diets and weight loss plans and the things I have learnt will help me on my final journey I hope!

I have tried losing weight all my life, I remember going to Weight Watchers meetings with my mum when I was 13. I wasn't a member or trying to lose weight but I do wish now I had taken more notice instead of sitting eating crisps (oops! I wasn't always welcome at the meetings haha) but what teenager really wants to lose weight.

I have so many memories of my mum trying to help me lose weight, doctors telling me I was obese (yet never offering any more help than telling me to eat less!) I was quite active as a child until about 14/15 so it was down to my eating. 

I first joined a proper weight loss group aged 18, I joined Slimming World in November 2009, I did quite well and almost got to 3 stone lost. The thing that got in the way was my consultant passing away May 2011. She was part of my life for 18 months, we were quite close and she was the reason I lost almost 3 stone. She is the reason I still love Slimming World to this day and even though I don't follow plan exactly most of my meals are SW friendly and I think the plan is a great life style changed.

Since I first left Slimming World in May 2011 I have tried various things - Celebrity Slim, Slimfast, Weight Watchers, Slimming World (5 times!). I have lost weight and regained more.

The thing I recently realised was I felt restricted whenever I was following a plan, if I felt I shouldn't be eating something I wanted it more which eventually resulted in binge eating.

A few weeks ago I became unemployed as my contract at work ended so I didn't have the spare money to buy expensive foods or pay for a group/weight loss plan. I decided just to do my own thing. 

Since doing my own thing I have felt different, I don't seem to eat so much as I don't feel resricted. I have been having treats but in moderation such as mini Milkybars or low calorie hot chocolates. All my meals are healthy and majory still SW based but if  I fancy a garlic bread or using proper oil for a change I do without worrying or panicking.

When I got weighed Monday I was 2lb down in a week which was great as I had a few more treats than usual including takeaway, pancakes & sandwiches at the pub buffet. The difference was when I had all treats I ate much less, I had them in moderation and enjoyed them rather than it turning into a binge.

I got weighed again this morning and am another 4lb down, since Sunday I have been eating really well, not many treats just a healthy balanced diet.

I have also been out walking twice, not far but I have been out more than I have in past 3 weeks since leaving work. I hope to save up to get some decent trainers soon as I'd love to start jogging but my trainers at the moment hurt my legs so much with lack of support.

I have realised no matter what weight loss plan I follow it won't matter it is me who matters, I need to do this, no one else can do it for me. 

This blog will be updates of my weight loss, my general feelings on health and exercise.