All my life I have been a comfort eater. I struggled a lot through school, especially high school so it isn't a surprise I gained weight. Eating junk food made me happy for a short while then the guilt set it, then I felt worse so then I ate again to make myself feel better. A vicious cycle I couldn't seem to break, the eating just made me gain weight, which lead to more bullying which lead to eating more - I couldn't win.
It calmed down a bit as a grew up and became an adult, but still even at 23 I still turn to food when I get upset, stressed etc. I always wished I was a person who couldn't eat when upset or stressed and ended up actually losing weight.
Recently I have been trying hard to control my emotional eating, I haven't suceeded so far until yesterday. Yesterday I had an upsetting day, being lonely and unemployed really got on top of me and I fancied a chinese (depsite being skint and giving it up for lent!) but I ignored my thoughts, got up, made tea so it was too late to change my mind. I actually enjoyed my tea and didn't regret having it instead of takeaway (I don't think anyone ever regrets eating healthy!). I was so proud I resisted when usually I'd have already been on my phone ordering.
Last night I didn't go to sleep until 4am and woke up at 7:30am so I feel rough, it would be so easy to get a McDonald's break to 'make me feel better' and have a pizza for tea or something tonight. But now I resisted yesterday I feel like I can do it again and agan. We are having a bit of a treat tonight (this was planned way before I felt rubbish). I feel if I can have one treat a week it will keep me going all week and it has helped I have to say.
Last night I didn't go to sleep until 4am and woke up at 7:30am so I feel rough, it would be so easy to get a McDonald's break to 'make me feel better' and have a pizza for tea or something tonight. But now I resisted yesterday I feel like I can do it again and agan. We are having a bit of a treat tonight (this was planned way before I felt rubbish). I feel if I can have one treat a week it will keep me going all week and it has helped I have to say.
Tonight we will be having my favourite swedish meatballs (not overly healthy!) but serving with wholewheat pasta, homemade pasta sauce and Weight Watchers garlic bread so a decent meal. Much better than a takeaway or pizza.
I got weighed again today and my weight is decreasing, for some people weighing daily can be a hinderance but for me it keeps me motivated and really helps my journey.
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